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Blurb

Friends to lovers.

Jack had done what he’d always done to protect himself.  He allowed fear to take over and as a result, he pushed Adam away. When Adam finally left, Jack understood that if he loved Adam as much as he claimed, he needed to change before Adam could risk his heart again.

Lovers to forever.

Adam understood why Jack kept his feelings secret, but after being ignored one too many times, he left. But Jack won’t give up and when he proves to Adam how much he wants their relationship to work, can Adam risk his heart to the one man he’s loved all over again?

Will Jack and Adam find their happily-ever-after during the season of miracles?

Excerpt

Jack paused before he asked the question that could break him.

“Do you…truly want out of our relationship?”

He could hear Adam breathing on the other line and held his own as he waited for Adam to answer.  Jack understood entirely in that moment what he’d put Adam through over the past few months, probably the last few years.  He would completely understand if Adam didn’t want to continue being hurt.  Jack’s own feelings aside, he would accept Adam’s decision because if he felt he couldn’t continue with Jack, Jack would let him go and wish him all the happiness in the world.  Or he hoped he would.

“No, but it hurts to be ignored.”

Jack breathed a sigh of relief.  He needed to change or he would lose Adam.

“I’m going to make it up to you.  I want to prove to you that I can change and by Christmas if you don’t believe that…then I’ll let you go.”

“Is that what you want?”

“No.  I can’t imagine loving anyone but you.  And while we’re apart, I’m going find a therapist to work on my issues.  There’s something holding me back from exactly who I want to be and be with, and I need help to find out what that is.”

There was a choked sound on the other line before Adam grew silent.

“I know I’m fucked up and the last thing I wanted to do was to hurt you, but that’s exactly what I did.  I can’t get past my own mind, so I need some help.  This time, I won’t take you for granted.”

“Are you afraid to admit your sexuality?”

“I suppose I am.  Adam, although it looked as though I slept with a lot of women, there has only been a few.  Mainly it was camouflage.  But I felt like I found myself the first time I kissed you.  I knew then I was gay and that you are the only man I will ever want.”

Adam sighed.  “You’re being surprisingly open about this.”

“The moment I heard the door shut and I realized you left…  It was the worst moment of my life.  I could take seeing my father every day and listen to his bullshit, but I never want to feel what I felt when you left.  And knowing that I drove you to it makes it worse.  So much worse.”

Jack took a deep breath and continued.  “I just hope you’ll take me back if I prove to you that I can change.”

Holding his breath, he waited for Adam’s answer.  Everything lost meaning the moment Adam walked out the door and Jack needed confirmation that he had a chance.

“Yes.”

Jack breathed out and closed his eyes as the fist squeezing his heart for most of the morning, released its painful hold.

“I know your busy Monday and Tuesday nights, but I wondered if I could bring you dinner on Wednesday after work and we could talk?”

Adam answered immediately.  “I would like that.”

Jack mentally arranged his to-do list and realized that Wednesday was three long days away.  “I’ll miss you.”

“We could always call and text.  I won’t be too busy for you.”

“Thanks for talking to me, even though I’m not sure I deserved it.  I’ll talk to you soon, okay?”

“Yeah, I’ll miss you, too.  Talk to you soon, Jack.”

“I love you, Adam.  And I’m sorry.”

“I know, Jack.”

Soon, they disconnected and Jack felt empty.


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Comments

  1. Kris Bock - December 20, 2017 @ 10:22 am

    I love that you acknowledged change sometimes takes therapy, not just loooove.

    • Valerie Ullmer - December 20, 2017 @ 12:29 pm

      I agree. Thanks for stopping by, Kris!

  2. Janet Lane Walters - December 20, 2017 @ 11:57 am

    What a dilemma for Jack. I wish him luck.

  3. Ed Hoornaert - December 20, 2017 @ 5:10 pm

    Their hesitance is poignant.

  4. Kayelle Allen - December 21, 2017 @ 5:16 am

    You can feel the tension in the air, along with a sense of hopefulness. Nicely done!

    • Valerie Ullmer - December 21, 2017 @ 6:51 am

      Thank you, Kayelle. Happy Holidays!

  5. Lisabet Sarai - December 22, 2017 @ 5:30 am

    You manage to pack a lot of emotion into that conversation, Valerie!

    • Valerie Ullmer - December 22, 2017 @ 7:35 am

      Thank you, Lisabet. Happy Holidays and thanks for stopping by!

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